Having thy mental-being within the unified consciousness and coming to India one could feel the aliveness, unity, and love within everything and everyone. Arriving in West-Benghal, a boy set to explore the disruptive set-times of its bussling roads of Kolkata. I found my 30 minute walk to the Howrah station to be quite simple and yet a half-expressive peace within my Being put forth due to the observance of new life-being and stimuli around me. There was no nervousness amongst the walk, there was no anxiety with the stroll. In the initial set off from the hotel there indeed was a mixed-jumbled shyness. This quickly faded as I brought my concentration back to That. To summarise the reactive expression of people around as I walked through the town, I found it to be looks of interest, rather than looks of negative-judgement I would recieve from the peoples. Countless people were indeed looking at me for the sake of what it seemed to me, wonder. Everyone involved in city life of small city-shop-exchangememt, had a natural flow of harmony one cannot put into words. Having this been my first experience out of my nation consciousness it took me to a state of being I can term as concentrated-alertness. The culture-shock that most people speak of is derived from the ego separated from the Self. For to be shocked by a culture is the mind judging the culture leading to a separated thought and the emotion of fear. I could not relate to this. Once arrived at the station, I did my thing there, and told my self I will enjoy this walk instead having a alerted concentrated movement. The 30 minute walk back to the hotel was indeed more United. I looked at the things more, I observed the details of the people, food, traffic, shops, and street-buildings with more depth. I came to realise that the small experience I had of the Kolkata city-life during its traffic hour is a hasty disordered-order flow. This and that intermingling upon each other in respective-cordial manners. I found it very pleasing. Now, having the necessary drop of consciousness of thy being I am becoming more and more by the Golden Truth Dawns. For I admit, do I fear man? No. Do I fear spirit? Nay. Spirit is all consciousness within everything and everyone, and it is the fall of the Self I took that brought me back to the self-judgementized way of looking how I can keep things in Harmony at all times of thy action amongst a town that is majoritively divided from me. I see the divine within, I see the love within, I acknowledge the truth within. It is not fear within that exists as I move about in this Divine-Life, rather I currently come to feel it being at certain times and circumstances a unnecessary yet required self-hassled judgement of thy action and its effect it has on me and the entire effectuation of my uncontrollable illusive character within the town. I understand this is ignorant, and as I look at it from the new-born rising Divine consciousness I attain now, it is quite inevitable. For I am now obtaining the wisdom of the occult workings and the force movements within them have its effect on not only the world but the individual human psyche coupled along with the social mingling of others constituting to the distortion of our self-percieved identities. This is a rise out of a fall. And it is only by this ascending and descending state of existence that the infinite-Being can learn, prosper, and become its Truth of Love-Self; Vasudeva.
Motivation and will-power are two topics that contain numerous subtopics within its explanation. And from my perception I would say that both will-power and motivation can come from external stimuli and internal experiences and realizations. Motivation is not a simple black and white subject to understand. If one were to go to YouTube and search “How to become motivated”, there will be (for a majority of the videos at least) a multitude of short-length videos giving mentalized steps that one must know and understand to become motivated. I am not saying that this is wrong but it is only addressing one part of our Selfs and not the many other parts that are intermixing and fluctuating together to make up our true entire being. One having this knowledge of motivation within the mind (this is our mental being) can certainly bring a temporary burst and feeling of motivation. But, as I said earlier, motivation is not only a complex quality to understand and know but to also live, act, and be with that knowledge uninterruptedly throughout one’s life is quite difficult. I believe if this were not so than it would be easy-peezy for the majority of society to Become and get things done and sow the seeds now so it may reap its fruits later. A key fact to understand about motivation is that one cannot live and act in this quality if they do not understand and have the knowledge of will-power. Will-power is the core and basis of motivation. If one lacks or only puts forth a small portion of their will-power then there may be a high chance and correlation of that person feeling unmotivated. When a person thinks of and is trying to become motivated they will end up coming to the realization that it is the intelligent-will-power that brings the quality of motivation in its most secure way. The intelligent-will (buddhi) of the human and its ability to discern this from that is what makes us superior to our lower nature of our animal-Self. If I were to try and explain this along with the multiple parts of our being, as I had mentioned earlier, this short-essay would transform into a novel. For the time being one may read what I have expressed here and reflect upon it, and if it has given you more insight on the seemingly ever-confusing topic of motivation than may one acknowledge their step upwards and onwards within their life-path.
[Prescript: I wrote this around sometime late 2021 I believe..? Due to the ‘freestyle’ or ‘flow’ mode, per say, there are no paragraphs. Currently I feel a nudge more than in the past to put my thoughts into digital form. Day by day my self-expression will unfold and I will come here when I feel the spontaneous will arise from within and will transfer these conscious thoughts sporadically.]
How many times have I opened up to myself? What does it even mean to open up to thyself. Perhaps it is a static action in which I self-reflect on my entire being. The thoughts, emotions, actions, beliefs, ideas, desires, needs, wants, purpose, faith, circumstances, events, and countless other external and internal movements and forces that I am subject to within this existence. I cannot even begin to bring up a possible number of how many times I have been in a state of conscious self-reflection. I have had this self-awareness from as far back as elementary school. From being called “hard-headed” for wanting to know why I should act/think/feel in a certain way. For I was not questioning out of non-compliance but out of curiosity and reasoning. Perhaps my parent’s responses of “because I said so” or “don’t ask why just listen to me” were both ignorant yet valid in its own way. I believe they misunderstood my questioning as a sign of disobedience and looked at it in a rather negative and fragmented way. Instead of the opposite end of the pendulum which is my intrinsic nature of wander for truth and knowledge. I understand the necessity in their actions and while it is not entirely a deconstructive way of communication, it can become so if it is overused. For as a parent there are certain boundaries and limits one must place upon their child. And what may be right in one circumstance may not be so in the next circumstance. At the base and essence of relationships they are quite subjective and relative to each individual. As time went on I adapted to this idea that I should not question my parents and “do as I’m told” without questioning. For the most part I did obey, but there were times where I would backtalk and would get set in my place real quick. As I aged into the beginning of my teens I started to question my parents less and started to question myself more. Not only myself but at the time I would question myself within this confusing existence. I would ponder about the world, its meaning, its inception, its creator, its purpose, its origin, its ending. This would couple with the questions and a search for knowledge of myself and things that just didn’t make sense to me. I believe my experiences and happenings in my child hood also contributed to this need for attaining knowledge and trying to make sense of the falsehood-life that had a hold of me. My mind for most of my entire life had always been my worst enemy. If it wasn’t another person putting me down and myself allowing them to than it was I who would do it as well. Simply put, It is quite deconstructive and retrogressive to not believe in yourself. In other articles/journals I shall go more in depth with my struggles and wounds both within and without and how I reacted to them. For the reactions and attitude that is taken upon the self and the mind determines our reality and its possibilities within it greatly.
This may sound negative to most but in a higher truth sometimes the negative side of things is a better teacher than the positive. Having said that, I believe to have regrets of one’s past is to not realize the higher Truth of life. The One Manifestation of life gives us situations, catalyst, and happenings and we react how we are meant to in those present moments. So to say I wish I could go back and change this or tell myself that would effect our present self and is a sign of not unconditionally accepting the path we have already been down which has made us who we are today. That is not to say we don’t learn from our past and can share those teachings with others, but to “regret” our past self is limiting. That mentality will continue and one will say what do I regret about my 30s,40s,50s etc. Subjective idea-forms of the mind create distorted morals and ethics that are relevant to each individual. Life is an involution and evolution of consciousness throwing up forces and movements we consciously or subconsciously react to in each perceived second of the day. Regret nothing for when the time of transition comes and this body shall cast away one may ascend with Grace.
One who is not conscious is inconscious, or in the darkness. This is society’s false outer state of being. This is the ego. And in our current time of existence the majority of society puts a taboo on the darkness and oversimplifies life to fit into this box of strict all-positive existence. To convert this darkness one must adapt their attitude and concentrate to bring the conscious light/truth to their existence. Therefore understanding and comprehending the self, other-selfs, and nature-self is an educating of the being. This is where the will to educate oneself is important in ones life. Learning higher truths apart from the lower and partial truths play a significant role in our life more than people realize. One unconsciously chooses to educate themselves through the inevitable life-experience that is manifesting all of life omnipotently, this is the majority. As for the minority one may also choose to educate themselves not only through life-experience but also through inner-experience, through an aspiration of a higher knowledge. Here one develops a relationship with their selfs by curing their wounds, traumas, and hidden scars. One faces the darkness, one faces the suffering head on and acknowledges and accepts it for what it is. This can only be done through sincere action and ones true ability to put their ultimate freedom of choice in movement for the work of all-work. One cannot simply ‘be told’ to do so. One may suggest but it is up to the being to authentically and sincerely take part in the True-work. If one does not want to take the path of a yogi, the work of working on oneself to cure their wounds can be done for its own sake as well.
But this conscious true-work is not necessary for everybody. One knows intuitively whether or not it is naturally needed for thyself. If one begins the true-work out of a false calling and later decides it is not for them, there is no judgement nor belittling of that choice to do so. The yogi and the persons of the majority are equal in their being yet in their individual eternal consciousness they vary from higher and lower Light. Nonetheless, in the higher view both of life and of yoga, all life is either consciously or subconsciously a yoga. Everything and everyone is interactively becoming.
How do we remember and remanence the people we were close to? Well, I believe depending on the person who is doing the reminiscing it can vary. Of course each person is different and will either feel a feeling of overwhelming grief, sadness, or emptiness. But that becomes a choice once that void is healed. Once that is healed one can choose to take the time and think back to the memories and transform the feeling of sadness that suddenly and impulsively arose into grace, peace, and joy. This requires a concentration though, one must concentrate in the moment and feel this feeling start to arise and then consciously choose to transform it to its higher vibration of Harmony. This is relative to each individual and depending on their will-power and consciousness, will determine their adaptability to integrate this into themselves. Now normally when we take the time to stop and think about the feelings, thoughts, situations, and happenings we shared with this passed person we tend to stick only to the positive side of things. While there is nothing wrong or right about this I believe we can learn and draw valuable lessons from the shadow or “negative” side of the person who passed. For example, as I sit here and write this I think of my father and the love he showed indirectly and the knowledge he left behind without him even being aware. Just by him being himself I can now look back upon and think.. wow.. experiences that I had with him he was unconsciously showing me peace and interactive-meditation. At the time though I was not able to see it for what is was due to my fragmented lens of perception and seeing things in a separated ego-centric manner. On the other side I look at the shadow side of him and ask myself what can I learn from this. I think back to the pain and suffering he held deep within himself to which he would at times project this onto me and others. And instead of forming a low vibration of resentment and hate towards him for this behavior, I choose to understand and reminisce the lesson and teaching it leaves behind. I choose to not let what most people would call “bad” or “wrong” actions of him, deter me away from the information it leaves behind in my psyche and understand it instead of judging it. For I know He and I are not the only ones who experience these low vibrations and painful experiences. I know that my individual experience is felt and experienced by other individuals in this collective society we all share together.
This confusion, pain, and suffering we all feel is real. It is as real as the joy, bliss, and peace that we all progress and strive towards. But I know that the pain, suffering, and confusion is only a product of the separation-ignorance that comes from our egoistic selfs. For Divine Love will triumph ill-will every time. The shadow ceases to exist once the luminous light is cast upon it.
Hello everyone, today I want to ask and bring your awareness to a rather interesting realization I thought of just now. How should one know which source to draw our consciousness to when asking questions to help understand our selfs, others, and nature. To keep it rather simple for now, there are outer sources such as the unlimited information outside of us that exists in material existence that can answer our questions. For example.. things such as nature like rocks, trees, the sky, the changing of seasons, books, advice from other people, the internet. The list goes on. And on the other end, there are inner sources such as the unlimited knowledge within us that exists in our Being that can answer our questions as well. This is an interesting topic and conversation that can be had between two individuals or more. Each individual’s answer is true in its own way, but each answer does vary to lower-truths and higher-truths. All is relative, for the self who forms the answer is doing so with the consciousness-power of free-will. Now depending on the question or questions that are being asked determines what source to receive the answer from. If it is a question of understanding our selfs, other-selfs, and our nature-self than it is more logical to receive an answer drawn from the source of our inner-self. In America however, the modern society has not yet realized on a collective level that there is a difference between intellect, which comes from the mind, and knowledge which comes from our intuitive higher-truth realized self. I do not say this in a superiority complex type of way, rather I state this in a wholistic way for which I understand that the world and self is a Becoming and we are in a time where people are more focused on figuring out material sciences and equations before the collective consciousness shifts to the meta-physical side of things. This is understandable and inevitable due to the sense-mind trying to make progress through the senses and all that exists on the superficial surface-reality of things. This is why I respect religious, non-religious, and nihilist all together. Each individual has their own truth within their self, each individual has their own free-will within their self. I have no place in trying to change anyone, for one who truly wants to ascend and understand existence in its more pure and higher-truths, than they will do so with their own dynamic force that mysteriously and serendipitously comes from within.
If we can imagine for this time being while I write this and you read it. That if all is really one and the universe is absolute and in its most powerful and highest being harmonious and omniscient. Then if we want to align to that and get as close as possible to having that essence in our individuality than it is important to be very mindful of who we resent and who are what we hate. Now of course it is difficult to keep this being and concentration day by day, second by second as one endeavors in this spontaneous existence. But with practice, perseverance, and sincerity it is only inevitable that through experience and time in this Space-Time realm we can master this eventually. But for now if we want to be in harmony with the Supreme Joyful ultimate vibration of Unity and indivisibleness then it only seems logical that by feeling and thinking of lower energies and vibrations such as Hate and Resentment we in effect change our vibration to a lower state of existence. When people, places, or things test our essence of Truth and we respond and even worse hold low vibrations of hate and resentment than we are automatically giving our True Higher power within us away. We are letting a “piece” of our wholistic delicious pie be eaten by ignorant forces. The more people we hate and if we look at our past relationships with other-selfs with a negative vision such as resentfulness than we are drawing away our Life-Force/Life-Power/Life-Energy. If we then take the word I used at the beginning of this sharing, imagine, and instead replace it with Be. Be that oneness that is both embodying our individuality and our multiplicity of everyone and everything than we come into power and in alignment with the Absolute Consciousness. For everything and everyone is this, the “good” and the “bad”. The “pain and suffering” and the Joy and Peace. Everything is intermingling and co-existing among and within each and all. We have the choice to embrace this wholly or partially. No one can tell you nor I what to do or which portion to vibrate with. If all opposites and divided materialities are in essence one then it makes sense to me I want to be as close as possible to this oneness that I can possibly be. And there may be times where life hits us with roadblocks and we have no choice but to flow with this current happening.. but then there comes a time where we can choose how we react and remember these happenings. And by choosing Hate and Resentment we unconsciously keep our self in lower states of vibration because all is within all and it is disempowering to keep our consciousness in these lower states. By unconditionally accepting everything and everyone we align more to Love. For Life is Love and Love is Life…Truly. But perhaps life and love is another topic for next time..
What does sincerity mean to you? How does being sincere in ones life lead to true expression of one’s individual self and how does this in effect positively influence those around you? To me, being sincere is a way of life. Sincerity is not something that can be learned intellectually but rather a being in which one begins to progress towards. Sincerity is similar to honesty, truth, and authenticity. For all of these modes of existence are at the core of our inner-self. But through the ignorance into which we are born, as we grow older and as we form false mental formations of ourselves we temporarily separate from this true state of existence. If one were to ask you.. Are you True? Are you authentic? Most of us would answer the question with a yes. But how many persons of society that would answer with a yes actually embody that response day in day out? How many people are there who are sincere with not only themselves, but to other-selfs and nature-self? For it is one thing to trick our mind and fill up our superficial-egos with a half authentic answer of a yes without even putting in the effort every day and existing with True-Sincerity. To be clear just because one lives a life of sincerity does not mean they are better than the other. Living a life of sincerity is a choice one makes with their free-will. Living a life of Truth is a choice that requires a great deal of concentration amongst one’s being every second of the day. For this is quite difficult due to the human-nature of impulse, egoistic desires, and automatic habitual action. When one begins to ask themselves.. Am I sincere? Another question would be required to ponder on, do I TRUST? Do I trust myself? Do I trust other-selfs? Do I trust Nature-self? To live with sincerity is to live in Trust and to Trust is to live in sincerity. In the current time we are all experiencing at this moment Trust is the second most difficult thing to master besides Love. There are many reasons for this but just to name a few one could say that false media and entertainment deters our being from trust. Through unconscious psychological operations we are often led to believe half-truths that make us fear the unknown. Fearing the unknown is a common place trait in the majority of society today. But I ask you.. How can one fear something that one does not know? If we go deeper it is not fear that has entered our being but a half-truth limited idea-formation. What often leads to mistrust is trauma, wound-memories, and suffering experienced throughout our childhoods. Depending on the level of consciousness one embodies it is quite difficult to come to terms with what Trust really symbolizes. Trust is something that one must work on and it is something that requires a consciousness of perseverance and unconditional-acceptance of self, other-self, and nature-self.
Existing with sincerity has many positive effects when one is out in the material-world intermingling with other-selfs. There is a silent vibration one unconsciously picks up when a sincere person is around. People tend to gravitate towards the sincere self and often will respect them without even trying to respect them. It comes very naturally and when one is in contact with a sincere person they subconsciously trust them even if they are strangers to each other. When one is sincere within themselves their vibration spreads to other-selfs and in effect they momentarily become sincere as well. In most cases, despite the obvious other end of the spectrum, embodying this truth of sincerity in one’s self leads to many positive happenings. True sincerity within all and all within help the Universe remember its essence of Harmony.
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