Motivation and will-power are two topics that contain numerous subtopics within its explanation. And from my perception I would say that both will-power and motivation can come from external stimuli and internal experiences and realizations. Motivation is not a simple black and white subject to understand. If one were to go to YouTube and search “How to become motivated”, there will be (for a majority of the videos at least) a multitude of short-length videos giving mentalized steps that one must know and understand to become motivated. I am not saying that this is wrong but it is only addressing one part of our Selfs and not the many other parts that are intermixing and fluctuating together to make up our true entire being. One having this knowledge of motivation within the mind (this is our mental being) can certainly bring a temporary burst and feeling of motivation. But, as I said earlier, motivation is not only a complex quality to understand and know but to also live, act, and be with that knowledge uninterruptedly throughout one’s life is quite difficult. I believe if this were not so than it would be easy-peezy for the majority of society to Become and get things done and sow the seeds now so it may reap its fruits later. A key fact to understand about motivation is that one cannot live and act in this quality if they do not understand and have the knowledge of will-power. Will-power is the core and basis of motivation. If one lacks or only puts forth a small portion of their will-power then there may be a high chance and correlation of that person feeling unmotivated. When a person thinks of and is trying to become motivated they will end up coming to the realization that it is the intelligent-will-power that brings the quality of motivation in its most secure way. The intelligent-will (buddhi) of the human and its ability to discern this from that is what makes us superior to our lower nature of our animal-Self. If I were to try and explain this along with the multiple parts of our being, as I had mentioned earlier, this short-essay would transform into a novel. For the time being one may read what I have expressed here and reflect upon it, and if it has given you more insight on the seemingly ever-confusing topic of motivation than may one acknowledge their step upwards and onwards within their life-path.
Opening Up To Thyself
[Prescript: I wrote this around sometime late 2021 I believe..? Due to the ‘freestyle’ or ‘flow’ mode, per say, there are no paragraphs. Currently I feel a nudge more than in the past to put my thoughts into digital form. Day by day my self-expression will unfold and I will come here when I feel the spontaneous will arise from within and will transfer these conscious thoughts sporadically.]
How many times have I opened up to myself? What does it even mean to open up to thyself. Perhaps it is a static action in which I self-reflect on my entire being. The thoughts, emotions, actions, beliefs, ideas, desires, needs, wants, purpose, faith, circumstances, events, and countless other external and internal movements and forces that I am subject to within this existence. I cannot even begin to bring up a possible number of how many times I have been in a state of conscious self-reflection. I have had this self-awareness from as far back as elementary school. From being called “hard-headed” for wanting to know why I should act/think/feel in a certain way. For I was not questioning out of non-compliance but out of curiosity and reasoning. Perhaps my parent’s responses of “because I said so” or “don’t ask why just listen to me” were both ignorant yet valid in its own way. I believe they misunderstood my questioning as a sign of disobedience and looked at it in a rather negative and fragmented way. Instead of the opposite end of the pendulum which is my intrinsic nature of wander for truth and knowledge. I understand the necessity in their actions and while it is not entirely a deconstructive way of communication, it can become so if it is overused. For as a parent there are certain boundaries and limits one must place upon their child. And what may be right in one circumstance may not be so in the next circumstance. At the base and essence of relationships they are quite subjective and relative to each individual. As time went on I adapted to this idea that I should not question my parents and “do as I’m told” without questioning. For the most part I did obey, but there were times where I would backtalk and would get set in my place real quick. As I aged into the beginning of my teens I started to question my parents less and started to question myself more. Not only myself but at the time I would question myself within this confusing existence. I would ponder about the world, its meaning, its inception, its creator, its purpose, its origin, its ending. This would couple with the questions and a search for knowledge of myself and things that just didn’t make sense to me. I believe my experiences and happenings in my child hood also contributed to this need for attaining knowledge and trying to make sense of the falsehood-life that had a hold of me. My mind for most of my entire life had always been my worst enemy. If it wasn’t another person putting me down and myself allowing them to than it was I who would do it as well. Simply put, It is quite deconstructive and retrogressive to not believe in yourself. In other articles/journals I shall go more in depth with my struggles and wounds both within and without and how I reacted to them. For the reactions and attitude that is taken upon the self and the mind determines our reality and its possibilities within it greatly.
Have No Regrets
This may sound negative to most but in a higher truth sometimes the negative side of things is a better teacher than the positive. Having said that, I believe to have regrets of one’s past is to not realize the higher Truth of life. The One Manifestation of life gives us situations, catalyst, and happenings and we react how we are meant to in those present moments. So to say I wish I could go back and change this or tell myself that would effect our present self and is a sign of not unconditionally accepting the path we have already been down which has made us who we are today. That is not to say we don’t learn from our past and can share those teachings with others, but to “regret” our past self is limiting. That mentality will continue and one will say what do I regret about my 30s,40s,50s etc. Subjective idea-forms of the mind create distorted morals and ethics that are relevant to each individual. Life is an involution and evolution of consciousness throwing up forces and movements we consciously or subconsciously react to in each perceived second of the day. Regret nothing for when the time of transition comes and this body shall cast away one may ascend with Grace.
Battling The Darkness Within
One who is not conscious is inconscious, or in the darkness. This is society’s false outer state of being. This is the ego. And in our current time of existence the majority of society puts a taboo on the darkness and oversimplifies life to fit into this box of strict all-positive existence. To convert this darkness one must adapt their attitude and concentrate to bring the conscious light/truth to their existence. Therefore understanding and comprehending the self, other-selfs, and nature-self is an educating of the being. This is where the will to educate oneself is important in ones life. Learning higher truths apart from the lower and partial truths play a significant role in our life more than people realize. One unconsciously chooses to educate themselves through the inevitable life-experience that is manifesting all of life omnipotently, this is the majority. As for the minority one may also choose to educate themselves not only through life-experience but also through inner-experience, through an aspiration of a higher knowledge. Here one develops a relationship with their selfs by curing their wounds, traumas, and hidden scars. One faces the darkness, one faces the suffering head on and acknowledges and accepts it for what it is. This can only be done through sincere action and ones true ability to put their ultimate freedom of choice in movement for the work of all-work. One cannot simply ‘be told’ to do so. One may suggest but it is up to the being to authentically and sincerely take part in the True-work. If one does not want to take the path of a yogi, the work of working on oneself to cure their wounds can be done for its own sake as well.
But this conscious true-work is not necessary for everybody. One knows intuitively whether or not it is naturally needed for thyself. If one begins the true-work out of a false calling and later decides it is not for them, there is no judgement nor belittling of that choice to do so. The yogi and the persons of the majority are equal in their being yet in their individual eternal consciousness they vary from higher and lower Light. Nonetheless, in the higher view both of life and of yoga, all life is either consciously or subconsciously a yoga. Everything and everyone is interactively becoming.
Remembering Our Past Loved Ones
How do we remember and remanence the people we were close to? Well, I believe depending on the person who is doing the reminiscing it can vary. Of course each person is different and will either feel a feeling of overwhelming grief, sadness, or emptiness. But that becomes a choice once that void is healed. Once that is healed one can choose to take the time and think back to the memories and transform the feeling of sadness that suddenly and impulsively arose into grace, peace, and joy. This requires a concentration though, one must concentrate in the moment and feel this feeling start to arise and then consciously choose to transform it to its higher vibration of Harmony. This is relative to each individual and depending on their will-power and consciousness, will determine their adaptability to integrate this into themselves. Now normally when we take the time to stop and think about the feelings, thoughts, situations, and happenings we shared with this passed person we tend to stick only to the positive side of things. While there is nothing wrong or right about this I believe we can learn and draw valuable lessons from the shadow or “negative” side of the person who passed. For example, as I sit here and write this I think of my father and the love he showed indirectly and the knowledge he left behind without him even being aware. Just by him being himself I can now look back upon and think.. wow.. experiences that I had with him he was unconsciously showing me peace and interactive-meditation. At the time though I was not able to see it for what is was due to my fragmented lens of perception and seeing things in a separated ego-centric manner. On the other side I look at the shadow side of him and ask myself what can I learn from this. I think back to the pain and suffering he held deep within himself to which he would at times project this onto me and others. And instead of forming a low vibration of resentment and hate towards him for this behavior, I choose to understand and reminisce the lesson and teaching it leaves behind. I choose to not let what most people would call “bad” or “wrong” actions of him, deter me away from the information it leaves behind in my psyche and understand it instead of judging it. For I know He and I are not the only ones who experience these low vibrations and painful experiences. I know that my individual experience is felt and experienced by other individuals in this collective society we all share together.
This confusion, pain, and suffering we all feel is real. It is as real as the joy, bliss, and peace that we all progress and strive towards. But I know that the pain, suffering, and confusion is only a product of the separation-ignorance that comes from our egoistic selfs. For Divine Love will triumph ill-will every time. The shadow ceases to exist once the luminous light is cast upon it.
The Answer You Search For…
Hello everyone, today I want to ask and bring your awareness to a rather interesting realization I thought of just now. How should one know which source to draw our consciousness to when asking questions to help understand our selfs, others, and nature. To keep it rather simple for now, there are outer sources such as the unlimited information outside of us that exists in material existence that can answer our questions. For example.. things such as nature like rocks, trees, the sky, the changing of seasons, books, advice from other people, the internet. The list goes on. And on the other end, there are inner sources such as the unlimited knowledge within us that exists in our Being that can answer our questions as well. This is an interesting topic and conversation that can be had between two individuals or more. Each individual’s answer is true in its own way, but each answer does vary to lower-truths and higher-truths. All is relative, for the self who forms the answer is doing so with the consciousness-power of free-will. Now depending on the question or questions that are being asked determines what source to receive the answer from. If it is a question of understanding our selfs, other-selfs, and our nature-self than it is more logical to receive an answer drawn from the source of our inner-self. In America however, the modern society has not yet realized on a collective level that there is a difference between intellect, which comes from the mind, and knowledge which comes from our intuitive higher-truth realized self. I do not say this in a superiority complex type of way, rather I state this in a wholistic way for which I understand that the world and self is a Becoming and we are in a time where people are more focused on figuring out material sciences and equations before the collective consciousness shifts to the meta-physical side of things. This is understandable and inevitable due to the sense-mind trying to make progress through the senses and all that exists on the superficial surface-reality of things. This is why I respect religious, non-religious, and nihilist all together. Each individual has their own truth within their self, each individual has their own free-will within their self. I have no place in trying to change anyone, for one who truly wants to ascend and understand existence in its more pure and higher-truths, than they will do so with their own dynamic force that mysteriously and serendipitously comes from within.
Modern Day Kings and Queens
Why should one care who the modern day Kings and Queens are? I believe this is important question for the youth, young adults, and adults to understand. One should be conscious and not in the ignorance because modern day Kings and Queens are an easy yet unrecognizable way for manipulation, coercion, and confusion to enter our lives. A majority of modern society today is being heavily influenced unconsciously by the persons who seem to have our best interests at hearts, but in reality the information they push into our conscious is often mis-information that keeps us away from our true higher individualized selfs.
If one were to study parts of our history dating back to the times of Kings and Queens, one would realize there was a point in times where Kings and Queens ruled over the whole society. It was the king or queen who had the say so and it was the king or queen who formed idea-forms, rules, and regulations that a majority of society not only had to follow but blindly followed out of fear and in order to not be executed. Obviously the idea of kings and queens in a modern society here in the West is not active anymore partly due to the idea that one persons say is the be all and end all for everyone else. On the surface level of the mind this seems illogical and outright “unfair”. Returning back to our current state in time we have a democracy where we the people hold the ultimate power. Well.. at least that is what we all have been told since we were too young to remember.
The conscious of society has risen and past kings and queens have been eradicated due to us realizing we all have individual rights. Now this is simple and straight forward to understand. But what is way more confusing and complicated for the mind to understand is that kings and queens in fact still do exist but they are not labeled with the word king/queen. I want to make this very clear that this is not a conspiracy theory nor an act of the new age Truther movements you see today. I am just stating briefly what most people are not able to understand due to how deep of an understanding one must come to. This can go off to many different sub-topics and I could give plenty of higher truths and higher knowledge that would triumph the lower-truths and falsehood that is intermingled in with the truths that the majority of society is conscious of. As time goes on I will write with precision about these topics thus making it its own topic that is explained thoroughly enough for it to have its own post. But for now I shall keep this writing rather short and continue on with who these modern day kings and queens are and why its important to be aware of this if one chooses to do so.
So who are the modern day kings and queens? To simply answer, anyone who has has fame and power. For example, most highly influential celebrities, humanitarians, actors, sports players, signed contract labeled artists such as rappers and other musicians. Perhaps there are some ‘good’ “kings and queens” and just because someone is famous or is highly influential does not mean they are a modern day king or queen. But there are many “kings and queens” that are only in a place of recognition due to them giving up their ability to share their all-expressive true beliefs. Now one might be thinking right now well what does that have to do with me? In today’s modern society a vast majority of society is in tune, unconsciously, and subconsciously being effected by the kings and queens lower-realities they project to us via the internet. Society is constantly being persuaded unconsciously through these people. As an adult, not all but some, may think or believe in their own idea-forms that they themselves have formed but then when your favorite celebrity (king) posts on Instagram their opposite idea-form you can unconsciously adapt to their reality, or rather try to adapt to their reality. Now most people will say, well that is not me and I know my beliefs apart from people with fame and power. That is understandable, but your child may not be able to discern between the two and is far more easily persuaded to lower-truths and lower-realities. For example, it is not random that rap is the number one music genre in the current times. Unoriginal, uncreative, contract label-signed rap artists often boast money, fame, lust, and violence. Young adults in and even older adults get caught up in the realities and blindly and unconsciously are influenced by these ill-formed ideas. These modern day kings and queens (artists) have millions of followings and are limited to what they can say and do. These artists are not even the one’s writing their songs. Now I am not saying that one should not listen to rap music of course not, but instead I am bringing the knowledge forward of the reality of the numerous corrupt industries that are against higher-truths and higher-knowledge and if one decides to become conscious of the information than good for them. For I respect one who does or does not insist on wanting to become conscious of these things, that is their free-will and obviously this article is not for them. But back to why one would insist on becoming conscious of the modern day kings and queens. I mentioned that children are highly susceptible to outside peer idea-forms and depending on who they are influenced by they may try to become someone they are not or act, speak, and behave in ignorant ways if they lack proper guidance. It is not only children who follow their peers realities if they do not have the guidance and from their parents. Adults also want to be apart of a community and also want to fit in, for this has been a part of the human psyche since times when humans were hunters and gatherers. But through time-space our realities and consciousness has transcended and evolved and continues to do so every second of the day.
I am not stating here that one must be cautious of all the celebrities, sports players, actors, music artists and other people with fame and/or power that they keep up with, but instead become conscious of the higher-truth that there is malevolent idea-forms mixed in with benevolent idea-forms that are portrayed to society. This is what makes it very confusing for one to even consider yet understand. As an individual in the collective society we have our own beliefs, realities, and ideas that help us live day by day and strive us with aim towards an ever becoming. For most people these realities we perspire with make our life more joyous and peaceful rather than causing unnecessary suffering and confusion to our lives. As individuals with a higher-knowledge conscious of the ignorant-knowledge that is subliminal on the surface reality of things, it is important to be aware of the modern day “Kings and Queens” so one must not veer off of their path of higher-truths.
We Unconsciously Limit Ourselves
It seems certain to me that most people in todays society limit their selfs to both the given labels that they have acquired through outside endeavors and the personal labels they have given their-self and to which they hold onto very tightly. Some acquired self-labels for example are things like our careers. I am a doctor. I am a dentist. I am a lawyer. I am a plumber. I am a mechanic. I am a real estate agent. Other labels one believes to have are personal labels such as values, morals, and ethics. I am caring. I am good. I am bad. I am honest. I am coercive. I am funny. I am stupid. Both type of labels whether they are positive or negative have their place and can be useful in certain happenings and in certain situations. But I find that more of the time than not these labels limit us. For example, if I believe myself to be a doctor who has graduated from a highly-rated University I will believe and let my egotistical self become unshakeable to another’s perception of health-knowledge. Of course it depends on the type of person this doctor is, but for the most part they will hold this label very close to them and disregard others viewpoints. Yes, the doctor has studied and knows certain things that one who does not have a degree does not know. But at the same time this world and the self are eternally evolving and progressing and is subjective and relative to both the self, other-selfs, and nature-self. To many people put all of their trust and beliefs into a doctors idea-formation without even doing their own due diligence. There are many reasons for this but to generalize one reason is simply because most people dislike inconvenience. People will tend to take things at face-value rather than ‘reading between the lines’. Misdiagnosis and medical error is the third leading cause of death in the U.S. We are currently in a time where we are making vast improvements and discoveries in the health industry, but this is done so on very limited means. These advancements and discoveries are limited. How so you ask? Well in a society where the understanding of life, self, and nature are both confusing and limited to the general public this causes many limitative idea-forms not only for the person who has formed this perception but also to the others who unconsciously allow themselves to believe in this one idea-form out of the unlimited possibilities that one is capable of creating. Society draws objectivity and truth to beliefs and idea-forms that seem to be correct and true to the vast majority of other people. In other words.. they only believe this and that because more people believe in this over that. To over-generalize lets take a hundred people. This group of a hundred people are on a bridge and ninety of them all at once jump off the bridge while only ten of them stay back. This is their logic, it is not stupid, but ignorant? Yes. Of course to the one jumping off the bridge they are unconsciously doing so because superficially it seems ‘right’ since everyone else is doing it. I share with you now the response my mother would give to me when she would ask me why I did something I was not suppose to do. My excuse when I was a child to why I did something I was not supposed to do was, “I did it because so and so did it.” To which she would tell me, “If so and so jumped off a bridge would you too?” My mother said this intuitively to me and it is quite funny because she is hypocritical when it comes to that statement. For she does not even understand the depth and Truth in it. I am not being disrespectful I am just being Truthful, it only sounds like I am disrespecting her because you do not understand our relationship to each other and all of the other information needed to see why I have said what I said. That is a whole ‘nother topic in its own and I am not going to get into that at this moment. Anyways, as I was saying.. this bridge question was more than a question. She was unconsciously describing me as a person. I didn’t know it in and through the past times of my life but I was always the one who did not ‘jump off the bridge’ because I saw everyone else doing it. I did not follow the peers around me and was always the odd one out. Now a lot of people like to claim this and a lot of people will falsely say they were never followers. But the people who go around telling others about this when it is unnecessary and only being said to boost their ego are not sincerely that. I understand I may sound contradicting to the reader but let me further explain myself.. this life of being the odd one out and not having mob mentality is not what it seems. I can only speak about it in Sincerity because I have been able to come out of the darkness for which it consequently puts one through. When i was younger and separated, lonely, bullied, teased, looked down upon, low self-esteem, depressed, low self-worth and many other negative idea-forms I had of myself. At a young age, one does not choose to be different. At a young age one does not get to make the choice of not being like the others. I was just.. living. Existing. And due to both physical and mental reasons I was the kid who did not fit in and in effect this led me to question myself deeply and to be confused as to why I am the way I am. From a young age I have always thought deeply about myself and the world around me, what else was there to do when you had hardly any friends to connect with and did not fit in with any crowd throughout the entire course of grade-school. I have briefly shared this with you all to give a slight awareness as to why not following the other blindly leads one down a path of temporary suffering. Fast forward to the now. In this present moment and in this time I still do not ‘fit in’. But my limited idea-forms and labels I once had of myself are not the representation of the being and consciousness I embody today. For all the years and all the steps taken down that pathway of self-limiting and suffering have brought me immense Joy and Gratitude today. The pain and suffering were necessary, if I could go back and change one thing I would change no thing, For these past happenings have brought me to a consciousness that is indescribable and ultimately cannot be understood by words. I can do my very best to explain precisely yes, but that would than turn into a novel lol. Also it is something that can be better understood when one has experienced what I am writing about because I understand that I am not the only one who has gone through the inevitable consequences that come about when one is not a ‘follower’. There are many others as well. If one is a follower that does not make them any less or not as ‘good’ as me. I do not think like that at all, for I believe that we are all unique individuals whether we have group mentality are not. We are all teachers and learners upon this vast and unlimited mysterious existence. A label of any kind and all kinds is very important to understand. For depending on the plane of our consciousness these labels can limit us for the worse or for the better. The choice is ours.
POSTSCRIPT: This is a journal style writing. Or what I like to refer as, intuitive writing. I wrote this in a mode of self-expression but at the same time altering my expression to be understood by the one reading. No corrections, no edits, no read-backs. I will just allow it to be as is.
If You’re Reading This..
If you’re reading this right now I will generalize and over state two states of being one can be in. Let’s say one is suffering and let’s say the other is gratitude. If one is in a temporary state of being of suffering than I am here to remind you it is okay to feel that way, and there is nothing “wrong” nor “bad” about it. That current temporary mode of existence has its purpose and if you want you can choose to persevere and work through it or you can temporarily avoid it. Either way the choice is yours.
But today I want to focus more so on gratitude. As I sit outside on the ground in my driveway gazing upon the trees and watching these wasps and other “scary” flying bugs fly around and come close to I feel deeply a sense of calmness and gratitude. I with the sun high above and it’s luminous rays contacting my skin I find in this simple moment I cannot ask for anything more nor wish of anything to be less. Of course I like adventures, exploring, creating, and other positive experiences and events. But honestly.. I think there is nothing that is greater nor less than just sitting down outside and being here. Being here in full, being here in Delight, being here in existence. Stillness to me is one of the most exuberating “activity” one can engage in. And I don’t mean to come off philosophical or overly spiritual. I am just flowing with whatever comes out of my inner-self and not letting my mind get in the way. This stillness and immobility is very dear to me. I don’t need to close my eyes and meditate into nirvana. None of us do (unless you feel the inner need to), for that nirvana is already here and can be tapped into with an open eye and an open being.
What does sincerity mean to you? How does being sincere in ones life lead to true expression of one’s individual self and how does this in effect positively influence those around you? To me, being sincere is a way of life. Sincerity is not something that can be learned intellectually but rather a being in which one begins to progress towards. Sincerity is similar to honesty, truth, and authenticity. For all of these modes of existence are at the core of our inner-self. But through the ignorance into which we are born, as we grow older and as we form false mental formations of ourselves we temporarily separate from this true state of existence. If one were to ask you.. Are you True? Are you authentic? Most of us would answer the question with a yes. But how many persons of society that would answer with a yes actually embody that response day in day out? How many people are there who are sincere with not only themselves, but to other-selfs and nature-self? For it is one thing to trick our mind and fill up our superficial-egos with a half authentic answer of a yes without even putting in the effort every day and existing with True-Sincerity. To be clear just because one lives a life of sincerity does not mean they are better than the other. Living a life of sincerity is a choice one makes with their free-will. Living a life of Truth is a choice that requires a great deal of concentration amongst one’s being every second of the day. For this is quite difficult due to the human-nature of impulse, egoistic desires, and automatic habitual action. When one begins to ask themselves.. Am I sincere? Another question would be required to ponder on, do I TRUST? Do I trust myself? Do I trust other-selfs? Do I trust Nature-self? To live with sincerity is to live in Trust and to Trust is to live in sincerity. In the current time we are all experiencing at this moment Trust is the second most difficult thing to master besides Love. There are many reasons for this but just to name a few one could say that false media and entertainment deters our being from trust. Through unconscious psychological operations we are often led to believe half-truths that make us fear the unknown. Fearing the unknown is a common place trait in the majority of society today. But I ask you.. How can one fear something that one does not know? If we go deeper it is not fear that has entered our being but a half-truth limited idea-formation. What often leads to mistrust is trauma, wound-memories, and suffering experienced throughout our childhoods. Depending on the level of consciousness one embodies it is quite difficult to come to terms with what Trust really symbolizes. Trust is something that one must work on and it is something that requires a consciousness of perseverance and unconditional-acceptance of self, other-self, and nature-self.
Existing with sincerity has many positive effects when one is out in the material-world intermingling with other-selfs. There is a silent vibration one unconsciously picks up when a sincere person is around. People tend to gravitate towards the sincere self and often will respect them without even trying to respect them. It comes very naturally and when one is in contact with a sincere person they subconsciously trust them even if they are strangers to each other. When one is sincere within themselves their vibration spreads to other-selfs and in effect they momentarily become sincere as well. In most cases, despite the obvious other end of the spectrum, embodying this truth of sincerity in one’s self leads to many positive happenings. True sincerity within all and all within help the Universe remember its essence of Harmony.