Motivation and will-power are two topics that contain numerous subtopics within its explanation. And from my perception I would say that both will-power and motivation can come from external stimuli and internal experiences and realizations. Motivation is not a simple black and white subject to understand. If one were to go to YouTube and search “How to become motivated”, there will be (for a majority of the videos at least) a multitude of short-length videos giving mentalized steps that one must know and understand to become motivated. I am not saying that this is wrong but it is only addressing one part of our Selfs and not the many other parts that are intermixing and fluctuating together to make up our true entire being. One having this knowledge of motivation within the mind (this is our mental being) can certainly bring a temporary burst and feeling of motivation. But, as I said earlier, motivation is not only a complex quality to understand and know but to also live, act, and be with that knowledge uninterruptedly throughout one’s life is quite difficult. I believe if this were not so than it would be easy-peezy for the majority of society to Become and get things done and sow the seeds now so it may reap its fruits later. A key fact to understand about motivation is that one cannot live and act in this quality if they do not understand and have the knowledge of will-power. Will-power is the core and basis of motivation. If one lacks or only puts forth a small portion of their will-power then there may be a high chance and correlation of that person feeling unmotivated. When a person thinks of and is trying to become motivated they will end up coming to the realization that it is the intelligent-will-power that brings the quality of motivation in its most secure way. The intelligent-will (buddhi) of the human and its ability to discern this from that is what makes us superior to our lower nature of our animal-Self. If I were to try and explain this along with the multiple parts of our being, as I had mentioned earlier, this short-essay would transform into a novel. For the time being one may read what I have expressed here and reflect upon it, and if it has given you more insight on the seemingly ever-confusing topic of motivation than may one acknowledge their step upwards and onwards within their life-path.
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Opening Up To Thyself
[Prescript: I wrote this around sometime late 2021 I believe..? Due to the ‘freestyle’ or ‘flow’ mode, per say, there are no paragraphs. Currently I feel a nudge more than in the past to put my thoughts into digital form. Day by day my self-expression will unfold and I will come here when I feel the spontaneous will arise from within and will transfer these conscious thoughts sporadically.]
How many times have I opened up to myself? What does it even mean to open up to thyself. Perhaps it is a static action in which I self-reflect on my entire being. The thoughts, emotions, actions, beliefs, ideas, desires, needs, wants, purpose, faith, circumstances, events, and countless other external and internal movements and forces that I am subject to within this existence. I cannot even begin to bring up a possible number of how many times I have been in a state of conscious self-reflection. I have had this self-awareness from as far back as elementary school. From being called “hard-headed” for wanting to know why I should act/think/feel in a certain way. For I was not questioning out of non-compliance but out of curiosity and reasoning. Perhaps my parent’s responses of “because I said so” or “don’t ask why just listen to me” were both ignorant yet valid in its own way. I believe they misunderstood my questioning as a sign of disobedience and looked at it in a rather negative and fragmented way. Instead of the opposite end of the pendulum which is my intrinsic nature of wander for truth and knowledge. I understand the necessity in their actions and while it is not entirely a deconstructive way of communication, it can become so if it is overused. For as a parent there are certain boundaries and limits one must place upon their child. And what may be right in one circumstance may not be so in the next circumstance. At the base and essence of relationships they are quite subjective and relative to each individual. As time went on I adapted to this idea that I should not question my parents and “do as I’m told” without questioning. For the most part I did obey, but there were times where I would backtalk and would get set in my place real quick. As I aged into the beginning of my teens I started to question my parents less and started to question myself more. Not only myself but at the time I would question myself within this confusing existence. I would ponder about the world, its meaning, its inception, its creator, its purpose, its origin, its ending. This would couple with the questions and a search for knowledge of myself and things that just didn’t make sense to me. I believe my experiences and happenings in my child hood also contributed to this need for attaining knowledge and trying to make sense of the falsehood-life that had a hold of me. My mind for most of my entire life had always been my worst enemy. If it wasn’t another person putting me down and myself allowing them to than it was I who would do it as well. Simply put, It is quite deconstructive and retrogressive to not believe in yourself. In other articles/journals I shall go more in depth with my struggles and wounds both within and without and how I reacted to them. For the reactions and attitude that is taken upon the self and the mind determines our reality and its possibilities within it greatly.
Remembering Our Past Loved Ones
How do we remember and remanence the people we were close to? Well, I believe depending on the person who is doing the reminiscing it can vary. Of course each person is different and will either feel a feeling of overwhelming grief, sadness, or emptiness. But that becomes a choice once that void is healed. Once that is healed one can choose to take the time and think back to the memories and transform the feeling of sadness that suddenly and impulsively arose into grace, peace, and joy. This requires a concentration though, one must concentrate in the moment and feel this feeling start to arise and then consciously choose to transform it to its higher vibration of Harmony. This is relative to each individual and depending on their will-power and consciousness, will determine their adaptability to integrate this into themselves. Now normally when we take the time to stop and think about the feelings, thoughts, situations, and happenings we shared with this passed person we tend to stick only to the positive side of things. While there is nothing wrong or right about this I believe we can learn and draw valuable lessons from the shadow or “negative” side of the person who passed. For example, as I sit here and write this I think of my father and the love he showed indirectly and the knowledge he left behind without him even being aware. Just by him being himself I can now look back upon and think.. wow.. experiences that I had with him he was unconsciously showing me peace and interactive-meditation. At the time though I was not able to see it for what is was due to my fragmented lens of perception and seeing things in a separated ego-centric manner. On the other side I look at the shadow side of him and ask myself what can I learn from this. I think back to the pain and suffering he held deep within himself to which he would at times project this onto me and others. And instead of forming a low vibration of resentment and hate towards him for this behavior, I choose to understand and reminisce the lesson and teaching it leaves behind. I choose to not let what most people would call “bad” or “wrong” actions of him, deter me away from the information it leaves behind in my psyche and understand it instead of judging it. For I know He and I are not the only ones who experience these low vibrations and painful experiences. I know that my individual experience is felt and experienced by other individuals in this collective society we all share together.
This confusion, pain, and suffering we all feel is real. It is as real as the joy, bliss, and peace that we all progress and strive towards. But I know that the pain, suffering, and confusion is only a product of the separation-ignorance that comes from our egoistic selfs. For Divine Love will triumph ill-will every time. The shadow ceases to exist once the luminous light is cast upon it.
If You’re Reading This..
If you’re reading this right now I will generalize and over state two states of being one can be in. Let’s say one is suffering and let’s say the other is gratitude. If one is in a temporary state of being of suffering than I am here to remind you it is okay to feel that way, and there is nothing “wrong” nor “bad” about it. That current temporary mode of existence has its purpose and if you want you can choose to persevere and work through it or you can temporarily avoid it. Either way the choice is yours.
But today I want to focus more so on gratitude. As I sit outside on the ground in my driveway gazing upon the trees and watching these wasps and other “scary” flying bugs fly around and come close to I feel deeply a sense of calmness and gratitude. I with the sun high above and it’s luminous rays contacting my skin I find in this simple moment I cannot ask for anything more nor wish of anything to be less. Of course I like adventures, exploring, creating, and other positive experiences and events. But honestly.. I think there is nothing that is greater nor less than just sitting down outside and being here. Being here in full, being here in Delight, being here in existence. Stillness to me is one of the most exuberating “activity” one can engage in. And I don’t mean to come off philosophical or overly spiritual. I am just flowing with whatever comes out of my inner-self and not letting my mind get in the way. This stillness and immobility is very dear to me. I don’t need to close my eyes and meditate into nirvana. None of us do (unless you feel the inner need to), for that nirvana is already here and can be tapped into with an open eye and an open being.
Harmonious Relating
In current-life there is is a general division in ninety-nine point nine percent of things. This necessary division is known by some but also not known by many as well. Knowing of this division helps one realize that there are things that can be contradicting but in a higher truth that one contradicting thing can become complementary. The division necessary for human life and experience also brings about an automatic opposite law in everything and everyone. When one concentrates their observance they will find that opposition and polarization is inevitable in the world. Higher, and lower. Benevolent and malevolent. These words I have just written is a very simple reason as to why people have a hard time understanding self in relation to other-self. These words I have written are the reason why most people do not know how to peacefully “Agree to disagree”. Many people rather resort to arguments and confrontations than to share their conflicting idea-forms peacefully. One can have the intellect of this inevitable division of the world but still be ignorance in their being due to their inauthenticity and/or impulsive nature. To sincerely exist and experience life embodying this temporary law of division is a powerful skill that leads to one having many harmonious first impressions. I believe that the simple first impressions and peaceful interactions that one experiences in life are what have a big effect unto the world. For there are many instances that one comes into their life where they get to choose to be consciously knowledgeable or impulsively-ignorant. These are small “battles”, and the more one is sincerely conscious and aware during these times brings a ten fold of positivity forces to the world. While yes, accomplishing big goals such as opening up hospitals or partaking in other major philanthropist efforts and giving can bring positive effects. One does not realize that the very same philanthropist can be unconscious and ignorant and step on many others back and exist with malevolent behavior. For the many small battles to one are not known and not sincerely and consciously approached. This earlier stated opposition and polarization is where the modern day human with their modern day sense-minds implement good and bad, right and wrong in everything and everyone. This is a doing of the human sense-mind, this is a being of the modern day divided unconscious ignorance in humans. As I said this division is necessary for life experience and life-play. This division is necessary for the lessons and time-space happenings occurring in this very present-moment. But in essence, duality is nowhere to be found and where it is to be found there is no right or wrong or good and bad. In the the current timeline of the Earth, falsehood and deception have caused man to create these lower-truth labels. While yes we do know the difference of what it feels like to exist in Bliss, but that is our natural inner-being momentarily in contact with the Truth. The confusion comes in to play when we notice the effects of lower emotion and mental forces. For the Higher-Truths of life lie in unity and indivisibility. The Higher-Truths of life are Delightful and whole, the world is a one-manifestation inevitably becoming to its Peaceful Absoluteness. Supreme-Integrity.
Inner & Outer Knowledge
A commonality of the self experiencing life is that we are constantly being pulled outwardly to discover the self, other-selfs, and nature. While at the same time the very same consciousness is being pulled inward waiting for the veil to lift and for the door to be willingly discovered and walked through. Our sense-mind is real and also very useful here in a 21st century world where materiality is highly responsible for evolution and progressive idea-forms and scientific discoveries. Due to the basis of the reality of our senses we tend to look at our selfs as a civilization that is farther advanced and highly intellectual compared to any other civilization that has come before us. This is the effect of the half-truth education that is thought in all American schools. While the modern day education system in America is not completely useless, there are partial-truths mixed in with Truths. This ultimately confuses the self and draws ill idea-forms that are based on false preconceptions, superficial studies only, and separative cognitive conditioning. The sense-mind has to willingly unlearn or at least broaden their consciousness to other possible idea-forms in order for reality to be less confusing. Just as we willingly consumed and allowed the misinformation in we must use the same will-power to alter and adapt new idea-forms and truth that align more to the essence of self, other-selfs, and Nature Earth. The ego-self does not like the thoughts nor feelings that are experienced when one begins to allow their consciousness to broaden. For it challenges it and makes it feel uncomfortable due to the unknown steps it unconsciously foresees has to be taken. When one has spent their whole life creating this outer ego and superficial self it can be painful to discover higher truths that naturally shift the ego-self to a mode of transcendence and self-discovery. It is commonly misunderstood that everyone and everything is limited in expressions. We form half-truth rules, morals, and ethics that divide us from the unlimited and endless potentialities that exist in the deeper forms of everything and everyone. The normal modern day societal collective perception also often leaves the individual to feel and think with a conscious that labels the self, other-selfs, and Earth Nature. We say, “This is that” and “That is this.” While this may be true it is also true that “This and that” are not separate nor limited to being only “That and This”. The modern day collective cognition does not fully understand Trust due to half truths taught not only to society through childhood conditioning but also because of the constant consumption of everyday media. This is far from any ‘Conspiracy’ for one only uses this label when their beliefs and preconceptions are being challenged to realize higher truths. These people who throw around the conspiracist label are unconsciously lacking willed self-evolution. Their consciousness is very small and it is not worth the time or effort to try and alter their perspective for they have all the right to be limited and bias if that’s what they choose to do. This is their truth and if they do not want to progress and concentrate their consciousness to a more wholistic integral knowing than one must let them peacefully be. But problems start the be formed when the self interacts with other-selfs who possess a limited consciousness. Other-selfs who do not embrace a wider span of consciousness often argue with the self who knows that everything in life does not have to be learned through the senses and that learning of history and the people there of are necessary for societies advancement. While yes one can learn many things from studying past other-selfs and events, the modern day self often forgets to trust in their self and the constantly evolving mind they possess. The world is a becoming and when one is constantly studying the past happenings they are unknowingly disregarding the current existing consciousness. If one were to take a moment and trust in thyself and trust in the universe they would soon come to realize that in this present moment a large majority of answers lie within and just beneath our superficial self. But one who cares about what society thinks of them and unconsciously follows the rules and preconceived ideas that are accepted they do not allow their selfs to Trust these ever-present inner knowings.
Sadness/Anxiety Fad
Hello everyone. Today I would like to share my opinion with all of you on the sensitive topic of ‘faking’ sadness and anxiety. Now before I began to share with you all what I have noticed over the span of a couple of years I want it to be clear that in no way am I trying to compare traumas or outright say people do not ‘authentically’ feel sad or anxious.
“Nowadays its funny cause the kids are faking sadness. But theres really nothing fun about being stuck in your room for a hundred days and a hundred nights wishing you can relate to the people outside.” This is a quote from one of my favorite artists that was said towards the end of his song, I have included it here due to it’s resonance within me and the truth of what is happening on social media. In the year of twenty-nineteen I decided to put a stop to the endless and meaningless observation of others through the social media apps of twitter, snapchat, and instagram. (I can write a blog about that another day going more in depth on what I learned and noticed after quitting social media for a year) But before I stopped observing peers through social media scrolling I noticed how there were many people on twitter who take serious problems such as sadness and anxiety and falsely exploit them. I would go down my twitter feed an notice how people are purposely wanting to feel sad or anxious. I don’t know.. it’s kind of hard to describe what I mean because I cannot sit here and write down word for word the posts that give off a sense of attention seeking behavior that derives off of this sadness and anxiety. But, on another note one can understand what I mean when we start to look at the modern day youth culture. The entertainment, artists, and even clothing designers take this very serious pain and try to make a couple bucks out of it. This in effect can subconsciously make the observer think, “Oh if I want to have that or be like that I must act like this” *Puts on Anti Social Social Club sweatshirt* The Majority of society follow others and want to be cool like the others. They imitate and act in ways that will make them belong, or at least make them THINK they belong. Now I am not saying that some of these people are not truly feeling sadness or anxiety, for they certainly can fill anxiety and sadness and post about it. But I believe there are very few people who openly express their feelings of sadness and anxiety as they are experiencing it. People who feel sadness and anxiety on a deep, dark, and suffering emotional level do not want to share that pain with others. In the moment when one truly feels and is experiencing this mode of existence they want nothing to do with others and certainly have no intention of being vulnerable online about it. From experience, when I was going through this mode of being I never expressed it to anyone. I was lonely. I was hurt. I was weak. And I could not find the courage within to let anyone know about this, because even if I did, I had at that time this false belief within that it wouldn’t solve are take it away anyways. I am only now able to express this experience because I have endured and spawned out of this false mode of existence. I have allowed myself to become grounded and more whole with nature and with myself. This takes time though, and depending on the person and their level of consciousness this can either be a sudden revampedment or a life long awaitment. And for others it may never happen because they choose not to face it for what it is.
Either way, one must know or will come to know this is only a false temporary mode of existence. And if you feel like it is forever, which it does feel like it will be ‘forever’, than I am here to tell you it is not and your are here to hear it is not so. Faith.