Inner & Outer Knowledge

Inner & Outer Knowledge

A commonality of the self experiencing life is that we are constantly being pulled outwardly to discover the self, other-selfs, and nature. While at the same time the very same consciousness is being pulled inward waiting for the veil to lift and for the door to be willingly discovered and walked through. Our sense-mind is real and also very useful here in a 21st century world where materiality is highly responsible for evolution and progressive idea-forms and scientific discoveries. Due to the basis of the reality of our senses we tend to look at our selfs as a civilization that is farther advanced and highly intellectual compared to any other civilization that has come before us. This is the effect of the half-truth education that is thought in all American schools. While the modern day education system in America is not completely useless, there are partial-truths mixed in with Truths. This ultimately confuses the self and draws ill idea-forms that are based on false preconceptions, superficial studies only, and separative cognitive conditioning. The sense-mind has to willingly unlearn or at least broaden their consciousness to other possible idea-forms in order for reality to be less confusing. Just as we willingly consumed and allowed the misinformation in we must use the same will-power to alter and adapt new idea-forms and truth that align more to the essence of self, other-selfs, and Nature Earth. The ego-self does not like the thoughts nor feelings that are experienced when one begins to allow their consciousness to broaden. For it challenges it and makes it feel uncomfortable due to the unknown steps it unconsciously foresees has to be taken. When one has spent their whole life creating this outer ego and superficial self it can be painful to discover higher truths that naturally shift the ego-self to a mode of transcendence and self-discovery. It is commonly misunderstood that everyone and everything is limited in expressions. We form half-truth rules, morals, and ethics that divide us from the unlimited and endless potentialities that exist in the deeper forms of everything and everyone. The normal modern day societal collective perception also often leaves the individual to feel and think with a conscious that labels the self, other-selfs, and Earth Nature. We say, “This is that” and “That is this.” While this may be true it is also true that “This and that” are not separate nor limited to being only “That and This”. The modern day collective cognition does not fully understand Trust due to half truths taught not only to society through childhood conditioning but also because of the constant consumption of everyday media. This is far from any ‘Conspiracy’ for one only uses this label when their beliefs and preconceptions are being challenged to realize higher truths. These people who throw around the conspiracist label are unconsciously lacking willed self-evolution. Their consciousness is very small and it is not worth the time or effort to try and alter their perspective for they have all the right to be limited and bias if that’s what they choose to do. This is their truth and if they do not want to progress and concentrate their consciousness to a more wholistic integral knowing than one must let them peacefully be. But problems start the be formed when the self interacts with other-selfs who possess a limited consciousness. Other-selfs who do not embrace a wider span of consciousness often argue with the self who knows that everything in life does not have to be learned through the senses and that learning of history and the people there of are necessary for societies advancement. While yes one can learn many things from studying past other-selfs and events, the modern day self often forgets to trust in their self and the constantly evolving mind they possess. The world is a becoming and when one is constantly studying the past happenings they are unknowingly disregarding the current existing consciousness. If one were to take a moment and trust in thyself and trust in the universe they would soon come to realize that in this present moment a large majority of answers lie within and just beneath our superficial self. But one who cares about what society thinks of them and unconsciously follows the rules and preconceived ideas that are accepted they do not allow their selfs to Trust these ever-present inner knowings.

The Good The Bad.. The Be?

The Good The Bad.. The Be?

Hello everyone. Today I want to write about morals, ethics, and rules. This is a touchy subject that I do not see many people write nor even speak about. Now depending on ones own idea-forms and bundle of old habits morals, ethics, and values are literally one of a kind. Its quite silly though because most of society, especially western society, expect people to have a ‘common sense’ intellect of what morals, ethics, and values are. Society makes these idea-forms out to be as simple as something like picking what shoes to wear today. If we examine the word common sense and one says, ‘oh don’t make it so difficult. Common sense is common sense and people should kNoW what to do and not to do.’ Usually people who think this way are not open minded and not understanding to others and their different perspectives. Their consciousness doesn’t comprehend the fact that common sense is not so common after all and most of us have been misled to believe it is. Society, our guardians, or even our peers depending how one was was raised tell us “do this.. it is right. Don’t do this.. it is wrong.” Or they may say things like.. “that is bad, DON’T do that” or “that is good, it’s okay to do that.” Most people are misinformed when it comes to how to set morals and ethics and how these idea-forms are subjective yet complementary objective in their essence as well. Mostly everyone assumes what is right and wrong and they walk around mingling in the world with other-selfs imposing and forcing these limited beliefs upon others unconsciously. Our morals and ethics are like the cells in our bodies, they are always changing and evolving every step of the way we take in this life, IF we allow them to. But most people do not understand this and are under the impression of old pseudo-science and believe that the gene is set and one is ‘determined’ by them. Many scientist, doctors, and psychologists consciousness are misinformed and do not understand nor even do they try to broaden their mind-horizon that our cells and genes are just as capable of change and evolving depending on the environment they are inhabited upon. Life is interdependent and it is known that nature repeats its self and if something like cells and genes are determined by their environment than this can be said about morals and ethics as well. It’s like the blind man who takes his hand and places it upon one part of the elephant and believes that this small fragmented part he perceives with his sense-mind is all there is. But in a higher truth he is only allowing and limiting himself to a fragmented portion of the whole. If we continue with this analogy one could say the blind man is not ‘wrong’, that his limited idea-form is in fact true because to him that is all he is allowing himself to be conscious of. This then becomes a partial-truth and one cannot say so otherwise. If they do say so otherwise they will try to prove their own perception and tell the blind man.. “you are wrong!” But then they are now forming an unnecessary problem out of such minute things and infringing upon the free-will all us humans have. Society takes their past happenings and ill-formed thought-forms and labels them and staples them to their superficial egoistic selfs. This is seen in many social interactions today, when people interact with other-selfs that they believe are separate and strangers to them they hold onto their morals and ethics ever so tightly and judge and compare others before they even get the chance to let that person express their selfs in that current present-moment. Life is not black and white and even though we are conditioned and products of a divided mindset, if we want to live life without self-forming unnecessary pain and suffering then going into social interactions and speaking to ‘strangers’ with an adaptive, open, and flexible mindset is highly important.

It is the little battles we face everyday that one must fight and be conscious of. How many people do you and I know that speak of themselves being ‘good’ or doing ‘righteous’ things without realizing how many people they had to step on and belittle in order to get to their current achievement? It is often so that the moral and ethical person is unconscious to their self-limiting idea-forms. For when one acts, speaks, and feels in life it is always changing, evolving, and adapting differently to what their past mind-memory has stored in their mind. But one must acknowledge and bring their concentration to this progressive essence of their being that is veiled oh so smoothly. I could write about this topic and go on to other subtopics for days and days. This is such an interesting topic to discuss and not many people take the initiative to do so. With our limited idea-forms and old habits we forget our self and the world is and will never be the same as it was yesterday. Through our own self-imposing ignorance we elude our higher-knowledge. In no way am I saying that ethics and morals are useless because they are not, but through experience most of us know that rules often lead us to reluctantly accept or even reject things and people at times when our inner-being is wanting to express and act in the opposite way. It is an old and outdated idea that mature humans need these sharp limiting idea-forms in order to bring harmony to life. When one takes the time to dissect, inspect, and bring their consciousness towards their true inner-selfs they will find that a majority of the time it is intuitively guiding them to what is subjectively and objectively ‘Right’ for their individual selfs. Although trauma and wounds are often covering up and in the way of feeling this intuitive self, you can be sure that these things are only there for a moments time and if one consciously becomes aware of this and sincerely puts in the work to dig through this rubbish, they will consequently reap the benefits in due time.

(POST-SCRIPT: I wanted to keep this writing relatively short so I may sound contradicting or hypocritical to some due to me not being precise in my explanations. Also, I capture all the photos I upload here. This one I particularly enjoyed taking because it speaks to me greatly. I have titled it The Sunlit Path (: )

To The Other Side

To The Other Side

Many people speak,write, and draw about “going to the other side.” Just what does it mean though to go to the other side?

Perhaps going to the other side can be defined as passing away or more commonly known as death. But when one says “death” this to me entails much information about the person indirectly. When I speak to others I refrain from using the word death or dead. The word death to me is most understood and synonymous with ‘end.’ If one were to say.. “I charged my phone but now it is dead.” I believe the word is symbolized correctly here because at one point in Time we perceived the phone turn on, or ‘start’, so to say it ‘ended’ or it is now ‘dead’ is logical.

But then, when we began to speak of living creatures such as humans and animals the word then becomes quite misguiding. For how can something that we’ve never witness from our sense-mind “end” if it never begun? If I were to say, “My father is dead.” It would be like saying my fathers life “ended.” While yes, his physical surface life might of ended but his consciousness did not ‘end.’ The consciousness is eternal, something that which never begun so therefore shall never have an end. To the mind this sounds contradicting, but from a higher integral knowledge one knows eternity has no beginning and end and is just “Is”. To simply “Be” is eternal.

One day I was at Barnes and Noble and I was browsing around picking up books and reading short fragments of them. I found one lying on the table that was under the subject of astronomy and it just so happened to be written by the very well known Stephen Hawking. I believe the book was titled something the along the lines of The Universe Creation or something like that, I don’t quite remember. But what I do clearly remember is the content of the last few pages that I read. In conclusion and in his last words he wrote the universe seems to have no end and seems to have exist and will exist for eternity. We must understand science and scientists are still at its very early stages of understanding life. For life is eternal, limitless, and unlimited and science is just one limited way to understanding thy self, the world, and consciousness.

Now if we take the saying “To go to the other side”, most people associate this with a humans (or animals) life leaving this world. But what if perhaps we are ALREADY on this ‘Other’ side? There’s this quote I resonate strongly with and it goes like .. “One does not go to the other side; one always has been on the side of death. But for the battler of Truth, the game becomes clear.” What is being said here basically is that when we come out our mother’s womb we begin to experience a long dragged out mode of physical “death” in Time-Space in our physical body. While many people believe we are living right now, in actuality we are “dying” slowly and living simultaneously. From this perspective one can now reason that when the body no longer can support and be a vessel for our consciousness we are “born” again or transitioned. The word “death” or “end” is no longer represented logically and is mislabeling the event that so many people in this World are afraid of.

We have “always been on the side of death”. Our higher truth is that we are an immortal and eternal being and when we come to Earth our True All-Knowledge of this self is distorted and placed in the ignorance, which is necessary for the activities of life-experience and life-action in Space-Time. This Material World is subjective yet objective. The self and the understanding of the self is also both subjective and objective. For in a world that has innumerable possibilities and is eternal, our consciousness is always longing for an ascension and realization. This is why thousands of religions exist today. This ascension of consciousness is often misunderstood with going to the other side. While yes there are higher worlds, our innate natural feeling to ascend our consciousness is our being longing to grow out of the ignorance we have been placed in and becomes one with the Absolute All-Knowing Knowledge.

“But for the battler of Truth, the game becomes clear.” If we look at the World we will see Joy, Delight, Peace, Harmony. But also one knows the world is filled with anger, hate, jealousy, pain and suffering. And for those of us who are aware and conscious of the self, other-selfs, and the Material-World and all its happenings, we embody our true benevolent Divine being and are constantly fighting and going against the Falsehood of the world. We are constantly transforming feeling and emotions of pain and suffering into higher states of Divine Being. We stand for the All Loving Absolute Truth and push against falsehood every second of our lives. This is the True Meditator, the one who experiences this beautiful world and maneuvers through it and embraces the Divine when interacting with other-selfs. This is how we change the world. The idea of renunciation and attaining Nirvana is outdated, the game (the word game here may come off to some like I am speaking of this world as an illusion, but I am not for this existence is very real, game simply means experiencing and making choices that inevitably effect self, other-selfs, and material nature) must be played with our physical body that is anchored and conscious here on Earth in Space-Time.

Traumatic Art

Traumatic Art

There are times in our life when we get to a moment of wanting to embrace our pain and suffering. Would it than be possible to embrace our pain and suffering through creativity. Instead of traditional exercises and psychological activities what if an approach of “dark creativity” is used to express our wounds and traumas thus leading more to an emotional expression rather than a solution solely based with the mind as the tool. Instead of thought being the paint brush (mind) our emotion or our heart would be the paint brush instead, melting into the craft and becoming one with it to the point where one becomes in a flow type of state. Ex: while playing guitar sing, speak, or strum how you feel. While painting, drawing, and any other form of creative art expression do so with the emotion of our pain and suffering behind it. Thus allowing the emotions to come up to the surface to be felt while at the same time slowly releasing it through and with every paint stroke and every strum.

(Buy empty canvases, and allow oneself to feel and be non-judge mental to the wounds that our brought up and feel these emotions while at the same time creating a piece of art/song out of it.)

This is not negative or pessimistic. I would say it is rather the opposite, which is a healthy expression of ones emotions and feelings, pain and suffering let go through means of beautiful creations instead of detrimental forms such as projected hate-speech, and/or physical or verbal abuse to self or others. No need to scream in the middle of an empty forest, instead one is able to let go through expressions and creations of ‘dark art’.

Our traumas, wounds, and shadow characteristics are filled with pain and suffering. When the piece of dark-art is created we transfer these energies that were once inside of us to the created object. We have let go and let loose. Now depending on each person and circumstance we might be able to fully let go or partially let go of the pain and suffering that was once unacknowledged and held within. Either way we have made a positive progression and release by means of artistic creation. There are many forms and expressions of art that we can let our wounds be channeled and released through. Painting, drawing, sculpting, writing, singing, and any other form of art one enjoys. Create and express with the emotion of our specific pain and suffering being felt.

(Postscript: This was a spontaneous journaling I did around 5AM when I woke up. I wrote this intuitively and as I think about it now, perhaps this why so many people are artistic in their nature and wanting to make careers out of being a painter, sculptor, singer etc. There are a lot of us who have normal 9-5 jobs and don’t make the time for artistic expression and creation but I believe this is a natural therapeutic remedy to invoke feelings of peace while at the same time feeling and releasing our suppressed wounds. I am certainly not the first to have this realization or come to this alternate solution. With a quick google search I found others who have written about this and give a more in depth way to get started, so if this has resonated with you perhaps you can look further into this or just outright trust yourself and know there isn’t much to learn on how to get started. If you think about it enough the answers are pretty straightforward and what feels right for you can only be discovered by you!If anyone has any pieces of ‘dark-art’ they would like to share I’d like to see.)

Consciousness and Dreams

Consciousness and Dreams

Consciousness. Who What, where, when, and why is consciousness? These questions at this current time in space-time are some of the most confusing and subjective/objectives questions one can ask. For to ask what consciousness is one is simply asking what life is. And life is all, and all is life so there are innumerable answers to this wonderful question. 
Depending on who you ask this question to though is a huge factor. And depending on how this person views the world and themselves greatly determines what type of answers you will get. (Coming from experience the perception I have of this Supreme-Absolute is a Spirtual-Materialist perception.) We our selfs, our other-selves, and matter (Earth) are both in essence subjective AND objective forms to this ONE true-manifestation. Although sounding contradictory to the mind it is in truth complementary not contradicting to the true-self. 
Today I want to briefly speak about dreams in particular and how our consciousness interacts with them. In essence when we are “awake” our consciousness is not automatically consciousness. It may seem so to the mind but in its true essence the consciousness is mostly a inconscient consciousness or a partial-consciousness until one observes and brings their concentration to the experience of being. Depending on the individual being in the present moment which in effect draws the true-consciousness more to the front of our being can be extremely difficult or quite easy. In this Earth-Realm this is where the division of ordinary person and invisible [spiritual] person lies and depending on the path one is experiencing their actions can differ and have different effects relating to their mode of consciousness. (It is very important to note here when I say and divide ordinary people from invisible aka spiritual people I am not saying one is higher or “better” than the other. For in essence we are all equal and one in the same.)

Now, what I find interesting is how our consciousness is affected and reactive in relation to our dream-state, sleep-state, and awake state. Depending on our level of consciousness typically when one goes to lie down and fall asleep they temporarily drift off and become unconscious or inconscient. (Different words but same meaning) They go from a wake consciousness to a sleep-state and the consciousness to some may appear at this time to be blank and in effect when one comes out of this sleep state some say they don’t remember anything and that they were not dreaming at all. But for one who does remember their dreams they go from being awake and conscious to lying in bed and letting their consciousness slowly/quickly slip away which in effect causes them to become unconscious and fall “asleep.” Once asleep and unconscious they enter modes of sleep such as nonREM-sleep and REM-sleep. During REM-sleep one begins to experience the dream world and the unconsciousness soon becomes partially conscious again and begins to experience dreams. I say partially-consciousness here because it isn’t until one begins to realize that they are indeed dreaming and then can create forms and change locations with the power of their concentration/awareness. Aka lucid dreaming, this is known to many and many people experience this. In current time, especially in this new era of spirituality, this is often confused with an out of body experience. The OBE is something not to be played with for it can be dangerous if one does not have the proper grounding in their being and does not have the true-knowledge of the realm they are entering. Often people get the two mixed up and will mistake a lucid dream for an OBE. OBE’s are a fascinating subject which currently have a ton of misinformation surrounding it. Unfortunately this is done purposely and very few know the true-knowledge on what lies ahead when entering this realm. For now, I will not go further into this subject because that is a whole ‘nother topic on its own and in general one does not need to experience an OBE to be “spiritual”. In actuality having an out of body experience is not important at all when one chooses to embark on the sunlit path. But to go back to our consciousness and how it changes when we go to rest at night, if you instead go to bed and keep your attention in your body, keep your concentration focused on your body, instead of lying down and unconsciously letting your consciousness slip away and draw you to “sleep.” One will notice our body and mind slowly go unconscious while our consciousness remains alert. This is difficult and depending on the individual can takes months and months and even years to learn. Once this is learned and experienced enough times, consciousness even while the mind and body lie “asleep” remains active. When one has mastered this their consciousness is under ones direct will at all times and when one goes to lie down they can experience and come into contact with the life Divine-energy. Five minutes in this state can give revitalizing energy to the being that is equal if not greater than a full nights rest of inconscient sleep. 
In our current timeline science is slowly but surely studying and trying to understand dreams and how are consciousness interrelates with them. There is good progress being made and I do without a doubt believe they will uncover information that will help people better understand the nature of sleep and dreams. But one must remember in this current  time-line Science and Psychology are barely in its prime stages if we take a grand look at the overall evolution of earth. Once scientist and psychologist realize the mind in essence limits their theories and studies, the world and their selves will change both drastically and quickly. When the Spirtual-Materialist human becomes mainstream, the world and the individual is in for surprises.  

Experiencing Death

(Pre-script: I wrote and tweeted this the another night on twitter as a thread and have taken the tweets and copied and pasted them here, This is why the format/spellings/construction appear to be as they are. I decided to share with you all here and I am open to any discussions and/or comments of yall’s experiences)

My father left this material Earth-plane from a sudden heart attack at age 47 a little over a year ago. He was rushed to the hospital where they tried to resuscitate him, it failed and he was pronounced “dead” after two hours or something like that.

By the time he was pronounced “dead” there were about 10 people or so awaiting for the news. The doctor let us go into the room to say our goodbyes to his pale motionless body.

Everyone who entered the room was in shock and crying in despair. (Try to understand, I don’t say this out of superiority..) When I entered the room I could instantly feel the low vibrations of pain and grief swarming me.

Instead of allowing these emotions to enter and take power over me I remained calm and peaceful and proceeded to go over to his side and give him a kiss upon his forehead.

The whole time I was waiting in the waiting room and also while being in the room after he was pronounced “dead” I had not shed one tear. This was not due to lack of empathy but more so a feeling of inner-knowing, which I can’t put into words, that everything was okay.

I did not spend much of my time near his body for I knew his consciousness was no longer entangled with it. Not only could I sense it but also if you look at a corpse that you have seen “alive” your whole life you notice a drastic difference.

Although I was not close to his unconscious body I stayed in and around the room. Everyone’s vibrations in and around the room we’re low except mine. I still embodied a sense of calm and peace within naturally.

When someone is pronounced “dead” they’re physical body is unconscious yes, but their consciousness is still in this realm but just on a different plane. Which brings me to my next point, which is most people who are about to “pass away” say, ‘be strong, it will be okay, don’t cry’

There must be a reason for this? Perhaps once one leaves their physical body their consciousness is still in this realm and if there are a bunch of people around the body in a low vibrational grieving state..

It makes the transition of the consciousness more difficult due to the low vibrations emitting from the grieving people in the area. It’s proven our emotions and thoughts emit forces/frequencies.

So intuitively I remained calm that way his consciousness wouldn’t be engulfed by only low frequencies of pain and suffering. By allowing my being not to succumb to these lower states of consciousness, my fathers spirit-consciousness had a more comfortable place to observe..

My aura was possibly the space where his spirit-consciousness was attracted to that day. And it possibly made his transition more comfortable.

Of course I was not able to keep away the forces of pain, grief, and suffering and later cried all night in bed thinking about all of the moments and conversations we were not able to share in this life-moment.

But what I felt that day was an unexpected calmness and peace. For I knew from within that everything was okay. And to anyone going through any form of grief, just know that no matter what at the end of the day our ‘passed’ loved ones are always with us.

On this physical-plane and to our physical minds it may not seem so but our spirit-consciousness knows otherwise. True-Life is eternal, True-life is harmonious.

The Divine Masculine and The Divine Feminine

The Divine Masculine and The Divine Feminine

Hello everyone. Today I write to you all to explain how a misunderstanding of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine within all of us is one of the many major causes to society’s suffering. Both to oneself and other-selfs.

It is not the Pure Divine Masculine and Pure Divine Feminine within and without that is causing confusion, pain, and suffering in this world. It is the individual and societal’s misconceptions, conditionings, stereotypes, ignorances, and limitations that have caused man and woman to live a life of confusion and suffering. Men, for instance, have been told it is not okay, or it is not tough, to do this or that because it is seen as weak and suspect. These idea-forms and teachings often come from one’s parents or guardians and have been instilled in them from their early child-hood. Teachings such as boys don’t cry, or it is weak for one to be or even show fragility and vulnerability to yourself yet others. This has lead many Men here in the west to form false-personalities that often consist of tough guy mentality and or unacknowledged feelings and emotions. Living life with this false perception leads one more likely to encounter unnecessary confusion and pain. It is no wonder why women throughout history have been seen as less incompetent and inferior. Women scare men and their egotistical view-points they have on their self and the reality of their world. Our history and generational cycles of our parents, and their parents parents etc. etc. have held on to many false beliefs and in effect have led men to be less connected to their true Divine Feminine side. The woman has had less idea-forms imposed on her which in effect has left them with a being that is more Pure and Whole. Although not completely in union with the Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine, they have a being that has not been so contrived and falsely altered. On the other hand, the woman has been misguided in regards to her True-Divine Masculine and True-Divine Feminine. Many women today often struggle as well with doing and saying things that may seem to the self and other-selves as masculine. History and the generations throughout have led society to believe in false idea-forms that a woman should abide by. A woman is than often ridiculed for doing, thinking, or feeling in ways that do not succumb to ‘lady-like’ behavior; yet when men mirror these exact behaviors they are not met with the overbearing projections of the other. This half-truth, false, or misunderstood ideas (or even a complete ignorance) of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine are causing people to look for answers in the outside external material reality. Humanity is rapidly evolving; materially, spiritually, and consciously. For both man and woman it is now evident people are trying to make sense of the misunderstood Divine Masculine and Feminine. This is evident in today’s gender norms and transphobic ideas. There has been a major increase in woman and man who have come to see their selves as either gay, lesbian, and/or bi-sexual. Compare the number of homosexuals there are today to how many there were one-hundred years ago. The increase is definite and sudden. Especially within the past decade there has been a rather sudden increase of people becoming transexual as well. The modern western materialist and their half-truth beliefs of the self and nature of our world have led them to look to external remedies such as opposite wardrobe appearances, plastic surgery, and or sex changes. These other-selves are misunderstood greatly in society, especially by men who embody this false idea of exaggerated masculinity. Unfortunately these misunderstood people suffer greatly from the ignorance in others and are often seen as weird and undivine. Obviously this is not the case at all, for the majority of society live a confused life and this is just their way of trying to understand their individual selves in this world of falsehood.

The faith in the one and the individual is increasing ever so greatly. This is evident for I have explained so in the end of the last paragraph above. If the human consciousness was not rising and searching for the Supreme than we would not be seeing the drastic change in people’s sexuality and gender-representations. This is only one example of how people are going against the false and partial-truths society has setup for us. The man and woman who look for external truths or remedies to make thyself whole may come to a temporary happiness. But in due time one will realize there is still something missing and to which they are in need of. It is not until they go within and discover the Divine spark that has quietly been there for eternity. This Divine spark is the one yet infinite being in everything and everyone. The Pure Supreme Divine masculine and feminine energy becomes understood and one here. The self, other-selfs, and nature can now be embraced and fulfilled. The lurking peace and equilibrium that the mind and materialist being denies is now forefront. This is knowledge.. this is Truth. <3

The Natural Glow Within

There is a natural glow within us that radiates and pours out to which our surface physical being shows.

The evening of my father’s death I experienced and realized this. For my whole life I never realized just how beautiful my father was until I saw his pale lifeless body lying on the hospital bed. While I was so accustomed and at the same time unaware of his body glow underneath the sun, it was now presenting its self to me as grey and dark. While all of my family around me wept and grieved I remained calm and still inside for I knew he needed at least some type of peaceful vibration to feel as his eternal consciousness departed from his body. This was not something I thought to do but rather I intuitively and sincerely felt within. I knew deep down that he was okay and if I were to feel lower states of consciousness such as sadness at this moment of his death it would make his transition more difficult to partake in.

My father was forty eight when he passed onwards. A massive and sudden heart attack was the cause. I could write about him for days but all words would be useless for his spirit-consciousness is absolute and eternal. No mind..no man.. on this planet can translate something so divine into words.

The Futile Dramatic

The Futile Dramatic

Hello everyone. Today I would like to share a perception on drama. I feel that drama is a subject that is commonly spoken about among peer groups in our society. Very much so that to the point it is normal and if one wants to get rid of conversing with people who speak down upon others they will most likely find that damn near everyone around them partakes in this type of communication. This is embedded in our society to the point we don’t even realize it is going on because we have become so numb to it. Ask yourself, out of eeeeeeverything to talk about why is it that people love to talk down upon others and things?

Just to be clear if I were to explain what the word drama expresses I would say that drama is in form of communication between one and another that is precisely focused on bringing up the ‘bad’ in the other person, place, event, or thing. I’m not saying that all people who speak ‘bad’ or negative are partaking in drama-driven communication, for such conversations can be had without the ‘draining’ effect. Now this is hard to put in words because one has to be experiencing the drama-driven conversation to know what I am trying to express with these words I type now. It is the tone, the vibrations, the attitude that one holds within them and also sends out at the same time that signifies that conversation is drama-driven. The reason why this cannot be put into words so easily is because it is more felt by our being rather than absorbed by the analytical mind. Most people will understand what I mean by this though because we have all been in these type of conversations. It is often the energy and force one puts behind their words that makes the conversation feel draining. One sign that you can tell if the conversation is drama-driven is the person speaking will often embody an alternate low-state of being as they are speaking about the the past person, place, or thing. For instance if one is speaking about an event and person that caused them to become frustrated they will now be frustrated right at the table with you as they tell you the story. Depending on the person who is listening to the story they might not even pick up on this because they are focused on the words and cannont feel the deeper reality behind said words. It is as if their body is ‘numb’ to such feelings. But just because one may not be able to feel or notice the unspoken vibrations behind the words that does not mean they are not effected by it. They still very much so are.

Drama is self-degrading. Without even realizing it when one is holding the drama-driven conversation they think they are only speaking bad upon the other but in reality they are unconsciously portraying their self. While there are many reasons as to why people like to have drama-driven conversations, I would say that one of the main reasons why so many people have this type of conversation is because it makes the person who is speaking ‘badly’ upon the other feel a false and illusive feeling of superiority. This is in the subconscious and if it were to be put into words it would state something along the lines of ‘hey, look at how bad this person/thing is…I am not that, I do not do this, but look they are doing it!’ This goes on without being said and is in the subconscious. And of course the person who dwells in drama will not admit our at least even bring their attention to this. It is similar and to some aspect related to the unhealthy habit of always comparing yourself to others. For one who often has drama-driven conversations has problems with negative Comparison as well. This is a whole ‘nother topic on its own. And for now I will not go into the deeper understandings of Comparison.

Do not get me wrong, I am in no way exempt and a saint of drama-driven conversations. I have had my fair share of it just like everyone else has. It wasn’t until I drew my attention and concentration to what it was that I was doing and looking at it from a different and deeper perspective. As I said in the beginning, when one does this sincerely they will start to notice just how widely socially-acceptable this behavior is. And from there they will see alllll the people around them that unconsciously partake in this low state of behavior. If one wants to truly remove drama from their life they must draw their attention to it when it starts to come up. They must draw themselves away from people who partake in this behavior or at least bring to their attention the more true reality of what they are spending their energy on. Some might say I am being over exaggerative or that it is not that serious. But it must be so, and not because I say so but take a step back and look at the reality of it. We will find that it is often our closest friends and family that ‘speak’ of drama. And this drama-driven behavior is often the cause to many family problems and suffering. Whether what is being said is true or not drama is in no way helpful to anyone or anything. It can even at times cause physical, emotional, and mental violence… And people wonder why so and so ‘hate’ them. Or they wonder why their friends and family don’t seem to get along. Little things like drama-driven conversation can go a long way and effect our reality in ways we thought were not even possible. Quitting the act of drama-driven conversation starts with our selves and takes time to develop. But the more and more one sincerely approaches and becomes aware of this behavior they will start to get rid of it all together. This is not as easy as it sounds though for if you change yourself and want to start participating in less drama-driven conversations you will find that the people around you who do not admit to this faulty will give you backlash. Which in effect might cause a loss of some relationships you have with others, depending on the plane of consciousness the other possesses and how receptive they are. This is why many don’t think its “That Serious”. One cannot say what will happen with your current relationships because it is simply unknown and the possibilities are endless. But one thing you can be certain of is that you yourself will start to notice the change within, and this change within will lighten you..will bring more of a peaceful sense to you and yours.

Sincerely Observing Oneself

Sincerely Observing Oneself

Have you ever caught yourself thinking about who you were, who you are, and who will you be? This can be a scary and deep question to some because once you start thinking about oneself like this it can almost be certain that your mind and your emotions will be led usually down a dark alley with all the negative experiences, thoughts, and emotions one has dealt with or may come to deal with. But the plane of consciousness each individual is at also plays a part in how they react when faced with these unknown questions. If one does not sincerely observe themselves they would say I am pessimistic and should be more positive. These are the by-passers that have the partial truth and falsehood idea of ‘think positive be positive’, ‘think rich grow rich’, ‘all is one, love and light.’ This is one extreme end of the pendulum; the other extreme end would be ‘I am useless’ ‘There is nothing good about me’ ‘I am a failure’. Either way you look at yourself you will find that in both of these responses one is expressing a half truth and being insincere. “I am the greatest person alive.” “I am the stupidest person alive”. Each statement obviously comes from two different people but with different planes of consciousness and both idea-forms will have its effects and consequences. A sincerer approach to these questions would be for one to reconcile and bring their attention to both sides of the pendulum, and working to establish an equilibrium between the two opposite ends. Overall though, one must realize that no matter which approach is taken it is in its own way objective and relatively true. One must not say, “It is this!” “It is that!” For all in itself is absolutely necessary, otherwise there would be no multiplicity of individualistic expression in this infinite existence.