Having thy mental-being within the unified consciousness and coming to India one could feel the aliveness, unity, and love within everything and everyone. Arriving in West-Benghal, a boy set to explore the disruptive set-times of its bussling roads of Kolkata. I found my 30 minute walk to the Howrah station to be quite simple and yet a half-expressive peace within my Being put forth due to the observance of new life-being and stimuli around me. There was no nervousness amongst the walk, there was no anxiety with the stroll. In the initial set off from the hotel there indeed was a mixed-jumbled shyness. This quickly faded as I brought my concentration back to That. To summarise the reactive expression of people around as I walked through the town, I found it to be looks of interest, rather than looks of negative-judgement I would recieve from the peoples. Countless people were indeed looking at me for the sake of what it seemed to me, wonder. Everyone involved in city life of small city-shop-exchangememt, had a natural flow of harmony one cannot put into words. Having this been my first experience out of my nation consciousness it took me to a state of being I can term as concentrated-alertness. The culture-shock that most people speak of is derived from the ego separated from the Self. For to be shocked by a culture is the mind judging the culture leading to a separated thought and the emotion of fear. I could not relate to this. Once arrived at the station, I did my thing there, and told my self I will enjoy this walk instead having a alerted concentrated movement. The 30 minute walk back to the hotel was indeed more United. I looked at the things more, I observed the details of the people, food, traffic, shops, and street-buildings with more depth. I came to realise that the small experience I had of the Kolkata city-life during its traffic hour is a hasty disordered-order flow. This and that intermingling upon each other in respective-cordial manners. I found it very pleasing.
Now, having the necessary drop of consciousness of thy being I am becoming more and more by the Golden Truth Dawns.
For I admit, do I fear man? No. Do I fear spirit? Nay. Spirit is all consciousness within everything and everyone, and it is the fall of the Self I took that brought me back to the self-judgementized way of looking how I can keep things in Harmony at all times of thy action amongst a town that is majoritively divided from me. I see the divine within, I see the love within, I acknowledge the truth within.  It is not fear within that exists as I move about in this Divine-Life, rather I currently come to feel it being at certain times and circumstances a unnecessary yet required self-hassled judgement of thy action and its effect it has on me and the entire effectuation of my uncontrollable illusive character within the town. I understand this is ignorant, and as I look at it from the new-born rising Divine consciousness I attain now, it is quite inevitable. For I am now obtaining the wisdom of the occult workings and the force movements within them have its effect on not only the world but the individual human psyche coupled along with the social mingling of others constituting to the distortion of our self-percieved identities. This is a rise out of a fall. And it is only by this ascending and descending state of existence that the infinite-Being can learn, prosper, and become its Truth of Love-Self; Vasudeva.


How Simple Tasks Like Driving Affect Our Well-Being

If we think deeply about traffic or negative road experiences we will come to see that it can be labeled as a determinate and revealer of suffering within an individual. A person who at that moment is suffering and or going through some sort of pain will project their being out unto others if he/she is provoked by an external event. For how can it be otherwise? People allow such minuet things to effect their lives. One lousy honk at a person driving who is suffering and they will pull beside you and maliciously stare you down while speeding off eventually with their middle finger seeable through the back window.

I will admit to you all, I use to project my anger out onto others when I would drive ALOT. They’re driving to slow? -Get mad, unnecessarily speak ill upon them for no reason, proceed to pass them up. They cut ME off? -Take it personal, get angry, and proceed to cut them back off. They pull out in slowly in front of me? -Furiously honk, speed up and pass them up while flicking them off. One day I was texting a friend of mine and she could tell through my diction that I was angry and called me out on it. I was angry, and it was all because some older lady was honking unnecessarily at me. She called me out for such behavior and said that I was being unloving. And me being ignorant and not taking responsibility for my unnecessary responses, I quickly denied her conscious advice and told myself she did not know what she was talking about. It took another experience for me to realize that I must control my negative impulses better when I am on the road. One day I was leaving class and was trying to back up out of my parking spot. This community college I went to had their parking in a multi-leveled garage so at certain times it would get very congested. Well, as I waited for a spot to clear open and back up I was not let out by some guy. My impatient self became frustrated and was looking through my back window while cursing him out and flicking him off. This guy was not having it and literally got out of his car and came up to my window screaming at me while insisting that we fight. Although I was not necessarily frightened by him, I was not angry nor reactive enough to get out of my car and physically hit him. Although I did feel an urge to want to give in and start a fight due to his proving insults, I suddenly realized that I caused the whole situation in the first place. The guy finally stopped angrily speaking to me, spat, and walked backed to his car. This event made me realize how easy it is to experience serious ‘road rage’ and how my behavior can quickly determine and trigger others pain and suffering. From that moment forward I told myself I would not be flicking random people off and be more conscious of my actions while I drive. This experience could of ended in another a whole different way if I had been a bit more impulsive and fought the man. I probably would have ended up getting arrested, shot, or even worse killed and would not be here typing this today. Life is so indeterminable and people are very impulsive. Especially people who are deeply in a temporary mode of pain and suffering. These types of people have no problem with fighting or hurting a random stranger like you and I. For people who are more sincere towards other they will still be angry and project that anger out onto the road other drivers, but they are less likely to cause a scene. If you really want to see how well someone such as a friend/ significant other can hold their composer and not let other people’s character dictate and have control over them, watch how they drive. Simple as that. There will be many happenings on the road where the driver’s inner self will be tested and their reactions will tell you a lot about them. For if a person is calm, relaxed, and well grounded how can they be moved by such ignorant actions from others. Such a person won’t even speak or think ill upon others while driving, even though there may seem reason to, their quiescent inner being will not react.

I realize now and have even taken a conscious step forward to try and not be moved by the ignorant driving of others. I will not allow my being to be controlled by another’s negative choice. It is so. We do not even realize that we lose our self for a moment and we let these unconscious drivers take control of our lives. The only true everlasting fix to this problem in society is not enforcing laws or regulations, but to get rid of the pain and the suffering at it’s core. This is on a whooooole ‘nother level of consciousness and requires much more action that just sitting here and typing. I do have faith though that it is possible, not to say when… but I know.. this is possible.