Writer’s Block. We all have at least at some point in our life experienced this mode of limitation. Most of us first experienced this blockage while we were in grade school. Teachers would present us with the most absurd and boring topics (almost purposely sometimes?) and expect us to have a page in a half done by the end of a certain time. Naturally, our mind starts to race as we sit in our chair and fiddle with our pencil..
For the longest I never felt comfortable while writing. I guess you could say it was because I would find myself sitting there with so many thoughts swarming my consciousness overwhelmingly. By the time I knew it thirty minutes had passed and I am still looking down at a blank sheet of paper while subconsciously feeling like a failure. I remember being in class during these quiet writing sessions and looking at everyone and noticing their progression as their pens swiftly moved along the paper. Now as I look back on it my mind was racing with thoughts and thinking too deep on such boring and mundane writing topics. Now I see it for what it’s true-reality is. And as far fetch as this might sound to others I would even say that public school purposely requires lessons and topics that subliminally create limitations in one’s mind. Writer’s block would naturally appear all throughout grade school for me. From elementary all the way to high school graduation. Especially in high school, where we as beginners learned how to write in a certain limitative way. “Oh have this here, mention that there, don’t forget to include this and that.” Now I understand some of this knowledge is useful in structuring and making our papers intriguable, but at the same time it poses great limitations to us and our natural ability to just let our words flow out. Teachers expect novice writers to learn and begin to write like pros. Who’s to say someone is a pro writer or an A+ writer just because they can follow a set of rules and regulations? The guy up in Harvard who writes ‘oh so etiquettely’ does so at a cost. Most of our intuitive and creative flow of writing is diminished once we start trying to conform to society’s learned way of writing.
From our structure, words, pronunciation, and even delivery. To truly write and express ourselves requires us to get into a mode of existence to where the words flow out as simply as water casting down a river. Effort through effortlessness becomes known. One will find that as soon as you drop any idea of proper writing conformities you will begin to feel this natural urge within to express. If you ask me I believe true writing does not come from the mind nor from a mind of knowledge that has been conditioned to be and think a certain way. This is why as I now write this blog and many others to come I do not put so much pressure on my mind, for natural and truth consequently manifest in my word-forms you now read.
P.S. If you have noticed I may have written some words here that some would say are not even words..but who’s to say what words are words and which words are not? That would be a whole ‘nother topic in itself.